Insomnia by Billy Collins
This was suggested by a reader and I found it quite apropos because I’ve been having even worse insomnia than usual as of late.
Insomnia
By Billy Collins
Even though the house is deeply silent
and the room, with no moon,
is perfectly dark,
even though the body is a sack of exhaustion
inert on the bed,
someone inside me will not
get off his tricycle,
will not stop tracing the same tight circle
on the same green threadbare carpet.
It makes no difference whether I lie
staring at the ceiling
or pace the living-room floor,
he keeps on making his furious rounds,
little pedaler in his frenzy,
my own worst enemy, my oldest friend.
What is there to do but close my eyes
and watch him circling the night,
schoolboy in an ill-fitting jacket,
leaning forward, his cap on backwards,
wringing the handlebars,
maintaining a certain speed?
Does anything exist at this hour
in this nest of dark rooms
but the spectacle of him
and the hope that before dawn
I can lift out some curious detail
that will carry me off to sleep—
the watch that encircles his pale wrist,
the expandable band,
the tiny hands that keep pointing this way and that.
I can see why my friend liked it. I often have moments like this too, you try to go to sleep but the thoughts just keep running around in your head. The thought that always gets me to sleep…I have this dream house, like if I won the lottery dream house and I imagine walking through the rooms in detail, the lampshades and everything. I don’t know why but it usually gets me to sleep.