Which Shall It Be? by Ethyl Lynn Beers

Beers is better known for All Quiet Along the Potomac, but I found this poem of hers also.

Which Shall It Be?
By Ethyl Lynn Beers

Which shall it be? Which shall it be?
I look’d at John—John look’d at me
(Dear, patient John, who loves me yet
As well as though my locks were jet);
And when I found that I must speak,
My voice seem’d strangely low and weak:
“Tell me again what Robert said?”
And then I, listening, bent my head.
“This is his letter:

“‘I will give
A house and land while you shall live,
If, in return, from out your seven,
One child to me for aye is given.’”
I look’d at John’s old garments worn,
I thought of all that John had borne
Of poverty, and work, and care,
Which I, though willing, could not share;
I thought of seven mouths to feed,
Of seven little children’s need,
And then of this.

“Come, John,” said I,
“We’ll choose among them as they lie
Asleep”; so, walking hand in hand,
Dear John and I survey’d our band.
First to the cradle lightly stepp’d,
Where Lilian the baby slept,
A glory ‘gainst the pillow white.
Softly the father stooped to lay
His rough hand down in loving way,
When dream or whisper made her stir,
And huskily he said: “Not her!”

We stopped beside the trundle-bed
And one long ray of lamp-light shed
Athwart the boyish faces there,
In sleep so pitiful and fair;
I saw on Jamie’s rough, red cheek,
A tear undried. Ere John could speak,
“He’s but a baby, too,” said I,
And kissed him as we hurried by.

Pale, patient Robbie’s angel face
Still in his sleep bore suffering’s trace;
No, for a thousand crowns, not him,”
He whispered, while our eyes were dim.

Poor Dick! bad Dick! our wayward son,
Turbulent, reckless, idle one—
Could he be spared? “Nay, He who gave,
Bade us befriend him to the grave;
Only a mother’s heart can be
Patient enough for such as he;
And so,” said John, “I would not dare
To send him from her bedside prayer.”

Then stole we softly up above
And knelt by Mary, child of love.
“Perhaps for her ‘twould better be,”
I said to John, Quite silently
He lifted up a curl that lay
Across her cheek in willful way,
And shook his head, “Nay, love, not thee,”
The while my heart beat audibly.

Only one more, our eldest lad,
Trusty and truthful, good and glad—
So like his father. “No, John, no—
I can not, will not let him go.”

And so we wrote in courteous way,
We could not drive one child away,
And afterward, toil lighter seemed,
Thinking of that of which we dreamed;
Happy, in truth, that not one face
We missed from its accustomed place;
Thankful to work for all the seven,
Trusting the rest to One in heaven!

Current Tea: Tangawizi ginger (Kenyan black tea blended with pure ground ginger)

4 comments:

  1. Julie McKeown, 23. September 2009, 13:10

    My husband sent me the link to this poem today, and it touched me deeply. We have 7 lovely children of our own, and believe that each one is a precious gift to our marriage. How beautifully Ethyl Lynn Beers expressed the love of parents and how that love makes you willing to endure any sacrifice. Thank you.

     
  2. rinabeana, 26. September 2009, 11:04

    I’m so glad that it this poem spoke to you. Thanks for commenting!

     
  3. Marion Williams, 9. November 2009, 15:40

    I first saw this poem when I was about 14. It was in a book called “Heart Throbs” published in 1905. I have loved this poem all my life, and I am now 91. I am about to give the book to my great-granddaughter, but was sorry to part with the poem. And then my granddaughter found the poem for me on the Internet!

     
  4. rinabeana, 9. November 2009, 21:14

    How lovely! I’m so glad that you will be able to share the poem with your great-granddaughter and revisit it whenever you want as well. I appreciate your comment!

     

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